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Long Goodbyes???

PaTience — Thu, 26 Jul 2007 20:20:36 GMT

I'm so not the type of person that digs long goodbyes.. But when it comes to a real goodbye, a final goodbye, I'll take as much time as needed. Slow and painful, but it's so difficult to let go.. It's so difficult to move on.. She keeps telling me that she'll take what she can get, that she wants me in her life forever.. I just don't know if I can do that.. She broke our agreement.. I don't trust her, but I'm still in love with her. I'm not ready to write her off, but I need space, I need time to think and air to breath..

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i want to

incendiarydream — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 17:14:25 GMT

run into you
bump into you
crash into you.

i miss you.

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makes me wonder

incendiarydream — Thu, 24 May 2007 03:00:18 GMT

I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
So this is goodbye

God damn, my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try

And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye

I've been here before
One day a week
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause..

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a f**k about you and I...
and so this is goodbye

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you,
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye

- Maroon 5
Makes Me Wonder

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I do miss You...

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 04:03:34 GMT

There it all was, right infront of me,and I was too caught up in my pride,and my stupid perception of hell...
It could have been perfect, I miss you so.

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this is the emptiness

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 05:28:22 GMT

i need you
as the sun yearns for space to fill
you hear me
leaves rustling in the wind
you know me
a stream, amongst many rocks
you left me
because what you don't want came along...

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why

hotrod — Mon, 19 Sep 2005 01:15:30 GMT

i was since six months ago on the 17 that i lost the love of my life i can still hear her laugh in my ears the beathful smile when i close my eyes an that evil little grin she has i can rember in every detail of when we first met i knew right then i met the person of my life that was 14yrs ago i can close my eyes an relive that day allover again i let go of the only person i truely loved i know in my heart i will never love some one like that again
the best years of my life were the ones i spent with her
i die a little each day with her not in my world
the world seams a lot darker with out her bright smile
lighting the way for me

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Say Goodbye

incendiarydream — Fri, 17 Mar 2006 00:08:53 GMT

So here we are tonight,
you and me together
The storm outside, and the fire is bright
Oh, and in your eyes I see
what's on my mind
You've got me wild
turned around inside
Oh and then desire, see, is creeping
up heavy, oh inside here
And I know you feel the same way as
I do now
let's make this an evening
Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight
Stay here with me, love, tonight
just for an evening
When we will make it,
our passionate pictures
You and me twist up;
secret creatures
And we'll stay here
Tomorrow go back to being friends
Yeah, Oh, go back to being friends
But tonight let's be lovers,
We kiss and sweat
We'll turn this better thing
to the best
Of all we can offer, Oh this rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
I'm turning and turning for you
Oh Girl, oh just tonight

Run away here with me
On an evening oh just wait and see
But tomorrow go back to your man
I'm back to my world
And we're back to being friends
Oh wait and see me,
Oh tonight let's do this thing
All we are is wasting hours
until the sun comes.. it's all ours
On our way here
Tomorrow go back to being friends

Yeah, Oh go back to being friends
Tonight let's be lovers, oh please
Tonight let's be lovers, say you will
Tonight let's be lovers, oh yeah
Tonight let's be lovers
And hear me call, oh soft-spoken whispering love
Well, a thing or two I have to say here
Tonight let's go all the way then
Oh Love I can see you,
Just for an evening
Oh, let's strip down, trip out at this
One evening starts with a kiss
and away yeah.. yeah

And tomorrow
back to being friends yeah
and now lovers...love...yeah... yeah..
Just for tonight, one night...love you... yeah
And tomorrow say goodbye
Tomorrow say goodbye...

Say Goodbye – Dave Matthews Band

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its funny....

incendiarydream — Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:45:50 GMT

how i didn't realize how much i enjoyed our conversations until they were over. i miss talking to you. i mean *really* miss it. i'm sorry that things ended up this way ~

but i hope that you are happy now.

it's better off anyway.

things work themselves out i guess.

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to whom it may concern or have concerned

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 08:13:25 GMT

we live in deeds, not years; in thoughts not breaths..in feelings, not figures..we should count our time by heart beats. he who most lives-who thinks most-feels the noblest acts the best..find those unwilling to supress the genius that you are creating..find one who speaks gently, you and i, thee and me, both know it is better to rule with rationality than fear..

sometimes i pause and sadly think of things that might have been, of the golden chances i let slip by..ones that have never returned.. the joys that might have been mine,the goals i almost won...sometimes when i feel hurried or diamayed i have to remember..that sweet are the thoughts that savor content..the lonliness that serenades the cities and hails upon your window like a loyal heart, yet so hard to find like honesty in a jealous lover. looks onward with quiet eyes..?..the joy of incompleteness..?..

stop to think about the days that have passed out mothers by..how they haunt our reason with anger and frustration. then i embrace the discontent i have found this very day...pondering...if i knew you and you knew me...if we were both given the gift of sight..im sure that we would differ less...our thoughts might agree. though many deeds that i have committed seem foolish, rash, calus...i saw the divinity, the purity that you grace this suffering suburbia with...

i awoke this morning thinking, 'let me do something today that will take away the sadness from which my memories exist of another.'..

we flatter those who we scarcely know..giving me the advantage in this uncalled for (possibly unwanted)-(maybe unread) letter. whatever has been, is a finished sum, whatever will be, why it will come.and so i do see that you have the past and the yet to be.today a future of yesterday and the past of tomorrow

i still recall when our courting was anew..every moment seemed perfectly orchestrated, and my heart became a field of wild flowers..a dream most of the time..nothing more..the same naivity that pleaded and pulsed my heart, later became a whirpool of dismay..and yet more and more of these sentiments will die amoung the long hot days of summer, assured to you and the rest of the unsightly world.

here in the quiet of my room..i apologize for requested so much of you...im sorry for expecting love, but keep in mind this is my first time... but most of all im mad at myself everytime i imagine you with someone new...someone touching you the way i did..feeling you now as i cant..making them joyous as you made me...i can hardly bare the thought of someone making love to you...and i hate myself when it crosses my mind that that should be me...how selfish i can be...ive moved on physically to others, but they all feel and remind me of you...like i explained ive never felt this way...i never wanted to but i wanted it from you...i think thats the biggest compliment i could ever give you...

maybe this letter will fall upon deaf ears, or now a muted heart towards the unfortunate sender..the mind has a thousand eyes and the heart but one.

the sound of your laughter, distant yet echoing somewhere in the back of my mind..the torn memories of penetration and the carelessness that you feel for me. people go off their seperate ways..some go off in groups,others stay with a life more familiar..and there are those who trek off alone into the unknown..

impermanence is all things that bestow our days and nights..our lagging years and annoyances we find in complete strangers..each chases his own dream strangely meeting another..then our past and our dreams, they blend like green leaves and golden flowers-into one beautiful whole..and life's endless nights come to an end and what lies beneath a ceaseless day.

maybe this is my last attempt before uncertainity sets in and grows old.. harbored disdain...but i knew i must say something even if it was just that i didnt know what to say..i spologize if this is boring you or brought you unclarified emotions..

i hope you have found someone who fufills your expectations of what should be..

someone willing to sacrifice just to be with you...to let themselves share you...

my memories of you, of us, ill never share...i am only left with memories, a cd you made with the first song 'make love to me forever' and dearest i will in a different way...and the countless pictures of your body, your grace, and your head upon my pillow...these are the only things i have left...the only way i have you is through these things...i never wanted memories i only wanted you...

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I'll Back You Up.

incendiarydream — Thu, 05 May 2005 13:01:05 GMT

I remember thinking......
I'll go on forever only knowing I'll see you again.
But I know,
The touch of you is so hard to remember-
But like that touch I know no other.
And for sure we have danced In the risk of each other.
Would you like to dance around the world with me?

I'll be falling all about my own thing,
And I know you're the heaviest weight-
When you're not here, that's hung around my head.

And your lips burn wild,
Thrown from the face of a child.
And in your eyes the seeing of the greatest few.
Do what you will,
Always walk where you like your steps.
Do as you please- I'll back you up.

I remember thinking.....
Sometimes we walk, sometimes we run away.
But I know, no matter how fast we are running-
Somehow we keep,
Somehow we keep up with each other.

I'll be falling all about my own thing,
And I know you're the heaviest weight-
When you're not here that's hung around my head.

And your lips burn wild,
Thrown from the face of a child.
And in your eyes the seeing of the greatest few.
Do what you will,
Always walk where you like your steps.
Do as you please- I'll back you up.

-Dave Matthews Band, I'll Back You Up
Album: Remember Two Things

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astral

Stacie — Tue, 05 Oct 2004 20:57:36 GMT

You used to be as clear as my own face in the mirror, but I was crazy then. You mastered my awakening. In you I became.
Now I sieve you out of my dreams; lost in the ether I wander. Your ghostly fingers stir, but part nothing.
So I seek you, and you recede. Now I wonder what I have indeed become, and will it ever be undone? Your force leaves me a chimera, a figment, a wraith.
And after your tempest, little eddies still swirl.

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it used to be true...

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 16:19:00 GMT

oh the pains of listening to bad sex being performed upon your love.
without the extended embrace at the end...
without the pitter of whispers and laughter..
without the warm glow of connection...
just creaking bed springs
pleasures ever rising wave
overtaking my fragile mind
with the seas of sluttery
oh, what we used to be.

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how do i tell my heart?

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 08:54:01 GMT

i can't breath...
after a trechurous night of seeing old freinds remincings about old dreams never to come true...
i wanted so much to hear the comfort of your voice...
so i did...you were at a party with your girlfriend...
your girlfriend...
we both said we didn't want commitments from eachother and my feelings were growing rapidly, so i didn't want to speak to you anymore...
but it wasn't true..
i wanted one with you...
i wanted so much to have your touch, to feel your warmth and lust...but it was more than a crush...
i loved you...you said you loved me too and those words exceeded the meaning they usually behold...you said i loved meant a hug when you couldn't be there..a kiss goodnight when you were working late...
i wanted to be the one you took to parties on your arm not just as a friend but as a confidant you called your girlfriend...
but all those words are broken now...
broken words..
broken promises...
i wanted you...
but what you said about commitment wasn't true...
it's not that you didnt want one...
it's just that you didn't want one with me..........
it was me you didn't want.....not a commitment...
it was me..........
now how do i tell me heart.......

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there's this fellow....

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 04:53:20 GMT

as perishable as youth maybe
i met him in his prime, and there i see...
all the glory a being can bestow upon...
he turned many heads not just with his silent charm but with his well thought out words...
he's the kind of guy anyone wants to be around because there's an unabiding faith he carries with him...
he's the kind of man women want to be around because there's kindness in him...
his mind glows with brilliant prospects, and it shows...
a part of him not many people get to know...
but just below the surface you can see all the things he's meant to be...
and he will be eternally missed by me...

i'll love him as the days grow long and short
i'll love him when he forgets of my existence
i'll love him on the days we ccould've shared
i'll miss him when i leave
he'll be the motherland and i'll be the sea...
he'll be solid as his eyes like amber glisten as he looks to the future...
because this fellow is the kind you find once in a lifetime...

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i never...

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 03:24:42 GMT

dreamed you could be so far away...
that we'd leave so much unsaid...
but now it's over and gone
mistakes to make another day

why can't we see, our own instability
contradictions if only we'd listen
to the words
to our world

i tried to give you everything without take
i failed to do anything apply a deeper rape
without her i have no grounded guide
wandering the shadows of the underdark

they are fleeting, vixens who enter my gaze
without flinching, they break through my haze
think they know me completely with a glance
proven totally wrong just give me a chance

where is the space where i can realize
not this unholy land of open suicide
take my life before i'm even born
cut it all to shreds, leave me torn

you'll take it all, leave an empty husk
only young once, gotta live I must
forget i ever knew what attracted me to you
because now i'm just an asshole

wait for me to spew.

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blame me...

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 07:51:37 GMT

i see it in my dreams...you haunting me...shouting...'why'...
'why did you say those things...'....
so blame me..take me at fault...hate me for telling you how i felt and discovering you weren't enough...
but if all this is said this must be said too...
you were enough...and i felt love...waking up beside your warmth your body so accepting to my touch... your strong hands dillouted me of all i was...
before i knew it i was lost...in you...in all that you were... all that you had come to mean to me...it was too much too soon... but i want it all back...every second...
i can still feel your hands drifting down the sides of my back...how i never wanted it to end...but i was falling to fast and running blindly through a path unknown even this solider couldn't understand...
blame me...
hate me for all of it...and for all i wasn't when i shouldve been...

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you come around...

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 06:36:44 GMT

why when i just manage to forget
you come around
why when i no longer give a shit
you come around.

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oh dear why?

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 04:03:45 GMT

do you draw me in? only to push me away? does it give you thrills or merely fill your time? is life so empty, lost divine, our purposes, intentions made of gold. never, ever are given, only sold. fucking promises made of sand, blown away the very next day, or on a turn of the tides. words are meant for a moment, but memories are for the lifetime.
why can't she give me anything, the smallest bit of her life. without it all i get is heaps of time. oh so wasted, the hours and days, when what it could have been, i'd be amazed. but they stay at arms legnth, afraid to lose what power they've gained.

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hmmm

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 22:16:56 GMT

i remember when you dreamed about me, when you were excited to hear my voice, those long talks on the phone about running away, escpaing everything, the time we kissed , the time i cried, i remember the hurt, i remember the lust, then i remembered, life goes on

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we can...

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 02:15:23 GMT

the burning sensuality...i want to be subjected to it all...your lips aflame, my heart beating faster...hold on to me quick before i fall...don't let me fall in love, not again... but we can live like jack and sally, celebrate hallow's eve every christmas time... just tell me again how you knew you loved me... i'll forget all the madness that came along... that stupid indecision to call you...where are you?

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solid apparition...

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 07:10:27 GMT

my time in your arms gets shorter and shorter, now it seems hardly anything at all. i remember an eternity i've spent on your chest listening to your breath and beat. how your arms would wrap my head and fiddle with my hair, like a delicate plaything. your deep, knowing laugh is among those things i miss the most... so contagious, it plays the strings of my heart and causes me to laugh and cry all at once...

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if....

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 23:57:31 GMT

of all the saddest words the saddest must be ' it might have been '...i look into the overcast sky and wish you were here... thinking: who's holding you now...
progression of life will continue whether we want to or not, just a fact of life...
i remember hearing your voice for the first time...if the world could have heard my happiness it would have invaded the streets with a defeaning roar...
Officially missing you...

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earlier reminders....

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 06:29:11 GMT

you've almost departed from my friendly earth. I still cannot shower without being reminded of your tenderness. The dresses the others wear remind me of the one time you wore a dress with a surprise underneath. The cold shock and shudder of a firm, smooth buttock where cloth should have been. The feather in my roof reminds me of our long beach walks and talks. How many times we've laughed together, how few times we've cried together, the times when we were close. Now, you are distant, like trying to call a ghost across the thinnest veil of reality. Communicating through your mental haze is an arduous task indeed, it is not worth the effort. I worry that you'll know what I am many years from now, when someone else can explain it better then I. It will be too late at that point, too late for us. I feel you slipping away, fortunatly, I don't care any more, I can't care any more.

As I Wanted and Willed, I desired to rebirth from your fire, stronger, more able and secure. I had hoped for many of these events, but there can be only one.

thanks Anemia, somehow you found my dream depositry =)

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rememberance...

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 04:22:08 GMT

there was something in the way he laughed that made me think of you...only to come home and see a letter mailed to me...with your name in the upper left hand corner...i can't read this... i've convinced myself you're gone and you're never coming back... but here you are, some part of you on my coffee table... just lying there disguised by white paper and a stupid american flag stamp...yes i remember if thats all you want to know...yes i remember how you felt in my arms...yes i think about you every time i pass deli zone and every time i buy popcorn or go to a fucking video store...
but today...i'm officially missing you...

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